Saw in the new year in Mirissa, Sri Lanka. In bed by 9pm.
* went to Beijing on business. Jason and Matilda came to join. Climbed the great wall again 23 years after doing it with my mum, Anna, Penny etc on a group trip!
* went to Indonesia for pleasure, Perth for a wedding, Thailand for negotiations. Closed a super bizarre deal in Bangkok. Drank smoothies in the bath each night while the men partied.
*started therapy with Jason for our communication issues and the numerous stupid fights we keep having after he gets disproportionately angry about something banal, like where to get a taxi from.
* came back to Sydney to help my mum after a couple of accidents and broken bones. Felt relived when she went to physical rehab for 3 months.
*attempted working from home whilst visiting my mum in hospital and taking care of Matilda for a week in the dead of sydney winter, utter disaster.
*came back after my mum had another accident and visited her in ICU. Very confronting. Cried in the kitchen about my mum's body failing and how vulnerable she had become. Spent time think about what a half decent daughter would do and how selfless my mum was when I was growing up.
*celebrated matildas 3rd birthday with a fabulous party. Had to organise and pay for everything as Jason and I were fighting in the week before hand. Stressful and annoying but was a good party. Everyone brought really expensive gifts which I found a little awkward. Particularly as I've been giving their kids crayons and books.
*Jason parents visited for 3 weeks. Jason and I were fighting and he stayed in a hotel a couple of nights. SUPER awkward. Rest of the trip was fine.
*Reached step 9 and started making amends. Called up neisha to tell her I stole shampoo in 1995. Also made amends to Jason's mum for their disastrous last trip. Didnt want to. Awkward! Calculated the massive sum of money I have to donate to a charity to make amends for random things I shoplifted whilst drunk and the odd [schnitzel] fraud I committed.
*hired one indian lawyer and two Chinese lawyers. Hate the Indian, love the chinks.
*had a Skype consultation with a fertility doctor. Convinced Jason to jizz in a cup and let me freeze embryos. Went off pill in preparation and fell pregnant.
*LOVED being pregnant, bought elegant corporate maternity wear, felt guilty I couldn't give the baby more attention in my uterus because I was so busy with work and Matilda. All went so fast.
*came back to Sydney to give birth and set about getting my mum organised, getting more helpers for her, getting her to appointments whilst organising yum yum and Matilda and still working full time. Absolute chaos. Found yum yum super annoying.
*Sprained my pelvis in the last 2 weeks of pregnancy from too much sitting and lawyering. Could barely walk.
*fabulous birth on Christmas eve at 4am, met baby Parker, went home on the bus with Matilda, Parker and Jason the next day. Looked a but eccentric. Didn't want to miss Christmas lunch.
*cried over my relationship with Matilda and missing her baby days, it all going so fast, the world changing on her and how much I love her. Learnt this is normal.
* Put yum yum on a plane back home and was glad to see the back of her. Really struggled with what to do, go back to Singapore and my job or just stay and help my mum, move our family back to sydney.
*Celebrated a year of sobriety. Found my own personality a little different in sobriety. I am both nicer and more bossy and arrogant when I am not a drunk. Working on acceptance and humility so I can stay sober.
*Spent new years eve in Balmain, heard the magical fireworks outside, in bed by 9pm.
