Saturday, October 1, 2016

A trip home

When are you coming to Sydney?

No plans.

I don’t know if I am particularly obtuse but I didn’t realise that he was actually asking if I would come and see him.

Patrick sent an email saying he has terminal cancer and he wants you to call him.

Do you think he is telling the truth?

Yes

I called. And said Im very sorry to hear that. How are you feeling?

I feel  bloody fine.

That’s good.

Im seeing Professor Epstein for lunch on Monday. He has made some great advances in the treatment available and has reviewed the notes. So I shall know more on Monday. In any event, I am very busy pushing through this reform of the rules pertaining to jury hearings of personal injury cases. Very busy.

That’s good.

So when are you coming to Sydney?

I could come in a few weeks I guess.

I flew home and went to the hospital t visit. I bought two coffees and wound up drinking both. Jason came to the hospital and waited in the foyer.  He didn’t like the idea of the trip at all and knew that emotional jaunts for family reasons were particularly bad for me. 

Matilda crawled around on the floor in the room, explored nooks and crannies, happily touched the suitcases and machines. She wouldn’t lie in the bed and cuddle him for a photo. He liked seeing her but was not familiar with babies.  We spoke in generalities and niceties and it was banal and a little sad.

 The air was pervaded by the obvious sense of the time that had passed and the things not said.

When I went to say  goodbye he requested that I kiss him on the cheek. I obliged,  both of us aware it was the first and last time.


I called a couple of times when I got home and he was moved to a different hospital. His lifelong best friend answered once and called him “Kel” when pasing the phone. A soft and gentle nickname for a man who had not been soft and gentle in my memories.

He had been humanised by sickness and frailty however.