Your blood is sticky
A transcendental dance hey?
I know that I tried
It’s no haiku
I do have the words, the gramma
And a healthy dose of red hot fear
Do you remember darling? This world where words
would never
age nor fade
I would be yours forever and you mine.
Yeah I remember. But everything after that...
No you say. It was my best hopes and worst
dreams.
I hear you cry as the door slams behind me.
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Trapped inside you
Outside you
All over the world.
You like the bracelet
I sneer at you.
About the haiuku?
I am f*cking angry. Enraged! Seriously losing
it here! The structure, the rigidity, I CANT HANDLE THIS!!
You throw that vase off the balcony. I never liked it anyway. You pull
your hair, collapse in a web of tears.
I kiss your forehead.
Beautiful girl, normal people don’t get so
upset about Japanese poetry.
Pregnant
Alone in a hotel room in Manila
Just what you always wanted mum
I am…
Just what you always wanted. Right?
I don’t want to hear it. You don’t want to say
it.
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I met a couple of doctors last night mum.
Plastic surgeons.
They said I don’t need to be chopped up
Maybe just a little botox
I smiled
I don’t want to be cut
Ever again
**************
With you
Without you
If I cant find the right doctor
Do it right
I realise on the monastic floor
That there is no point talking about it anymore
But today things are different.
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What would you do? She asks in the alpenglow.
If you were at the road?
What if you woke up one day and realised that
your daughter
Was the only person
In the whole wide world
Who had it right.
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Princess I’ll make you feel better.
Your spine is crooked, your gaze averted
EVERYONE is staring at you.
Princess I can show you
Silence
I am
afraid to tell you
Like someone in the Koran
A life that is
not mine to lose.
So
Just so.
What is it like? A life like this like this
like this
Delusions and fragments
Make it stop
And then
In a
Moment,
Just a moment
I don't need to do anything for you.
