The morning the anorexic wakes up and realises
that she is not fat
she never was
and all of this has just
been some inhospitable game
She realises because she is staring at her bony wrist,
the place you put that bracelet Angel
one charm for every adventure, every time I did something cool
and it is gone
I have never been so devastated about losing something
Admittedly, it was violent and I am lucky to be alive
and suddenly realise that I have an eating disorder
but it was my most treasured possession
my best hopes and worst dreams.
that she is not fat
she never was
and all of this has just
been some inhospitable game
She realises because she is staring at her bony wrist,
the place you put that bracelet Angel
one charm for every adventure, every time I did something cool
and it is gone
I have never been so devastated about losing something
Admittedly, it was violent and I am lucky to be alive
and suddenly realise that I have an eating disorder
but it was my most treasured possession
my best hopes and worst dreams.
