Ocean views
you said to me
sigh
breath
smash out the
vinyassas
you look around,
confused,
as I have seen you do many times before.
as I have seen you do many times before.
That day you
came in, it was a Tuesday
you were
cracking up
I could smell
the aftertaste of vodka.
You cried. Like something trapped.
I made you a
cup of tea
Kathryn. I'm
not doing so well
My mum is a million
miles away.
I need to ask
for some time off
to go away.
Away. To a hospital for a while.
I see you rip at long mahogany hair, strung out, holding on.
I see you rip at long mahogany hair, strung out, holding on.
I shut the
door
Its all good.
People
sometimes need a break
take a break
I said as though
talking to one of my kids.
You clutched
the side of you chair
and a stuffed
monkey
like some sort
of friend.
You touch his head.
Monkey brains
you say with heart broken affection.
We would miss
you
but it happened
that day
and you were
gone.
A different
person came back.
She was not
struggling to be alive
and saw things
through a sharper glass
and realised
that maybe
just maybe
all of this
was not for her.
